Oh The Plans

Well Ive been sayin it for a couple months now
but as a manic person its hard to sort my time
and so i dont procrastinate its not that its just
I'm always on other projects here at the cabin.

Manic meaning my brain is on fire at all times.
Im about 20% manic all day and oh yes it can
get worse than that but my medicine keeps me
from the Abyss of which there is no bottom.
I can go and go and go.

3 years ago i hit the pinnacle of manic and 
even Matsu Regional had never dealt with one
like me....I got the blue ribbon for being the
most manic person in the Universe and for 
good reason.
Yesterday my special doc wanted to play 
with meds again and thats how 2023 happened.

In this system you just cant be a sheep and go
where you are led especially to the slaughter.
Personally i have drawn the line in the sand
saying this is far enough but to my amazement
the establishment always tests the line to see
if i am serious....Dont be a sheep.

So, I have to sort out what time i have when I 
have it....
Its like a mountain here with everything piled
on top of me...projects,planning and a bit of
daydreaming to get a better picture.

My friend in Anchorage says I have lots of 
free time but thats what it looks like.
There is no such thing as free time when it 
comes to people who are manic.
Sure I can get things done but i hop around
like subject to subject but in project to
project.

One of these fine days my work will be done
but i just dont know when that will be or if 
I ever will finally calm down.
And throw in giving up smoking....Oh i gave
up cigarettes yeah...that was a real biggie
but Swisher Sweets are my Mortal Sin.

Peace, BigT